The Weekend in Recap

So much to do at work but so lacking the motivation so here is an update.

Friday we were lucky enough to get to leave work early. I found this out right after my workout, I had done 5 on the treadmill because it’s too freaking cold to go outside (yes, it is April, but it was so cold and windy I just couldn’t tolerate it) I got back to my desk around 1:30 and we got to leave at 2…that was awesome. Gave me time to stop at Super Target on the way home and get the few things I needed for my dessert for Easter dinner and then head home for nap, which I did manage. I got up about 2 hours later and checked email and the friend I was unsure about was coming with, she tried to call me too however and left a message that she was up for going for a little while, but not necessarily late. OK, well, whatever she was coming out. Made plans to meet up a bit early so we could go to a place she would find a drink she liked and still get to the regular place by happy hour. Well, the place we were going isn’t the place any of us likes for a hang out, but they have her drink…personally I think she’s too fussy as she likes margaritas, OK, fine, but they can make them anywhere as she wasn’t getting them blended at the bar we were at and if she asks the bartender at the other place he will make drinks the way she wants them, I think she just kind of needs something to complain about and after the antics this weekend, I'm not going to be too anxious to go out with her again.

So anyway, there was a really, really cute waiter I was staring at and I got a bit of a buzz before we went to where I might see C…so I guess the early stop was fine. We got there, my dive, my local hangout, my Cheers, and had a shot right away. No idea why…but oh well. The evening progressed and I was talking to a guy I had met earlier in the week and another guy, then ran into someone else that I knew but hadn’t seen in a long time, he didn’t remember me but I know people he knows and reminded him where I knew him from...later he was hitting on my roomie and she was not appreciating his come on lines…mainly talking about how much money he makes, what kind of car he drives, etc. She wasn’t impressed. She did like another guy that we had been talking with though, and got his number and has chatted with him a bit. She has some things going on, he has some things going on, so neither are really probably right for much, but a friendship is cool. So the reason was upset with the one friend...we were going to go for pizza after the bar, it sounded so good and there is a place open late, there was someone else that was going to come with us too…a new potential crush of mine if you will, and my friend wasn’t game. She was absolutely insistent that she was going home and was not going for pizza…ummm…yeah…OK, you aren’t driving, isn’t it friend rule/etiquette to help another friend out with a guy and if that means staying out a little longer when you can SLEEP IN THE NEXT DAY ANYWAY and don’t have plans to do anything but watch movies at home on Saturday night anyway. Sigh…we were going to come back and have pizza anyway and told him to ride along but last minute he turned off to go home (he lives around the corner, oh and no, I don't have a thing for Leo DiCaprio, BUT the crush kind of resembles him in this movie...kind of strange, I've never been attracted to Leo but found him sexy in The Departed and then meet a guy that looks like him...) and said he’d see me around at "the place"…he did give me a hug, but he didn’t ask for my number, he didn’t ask me for an actual meet up time and place…a guy friend suggested it's hard to know when to ask and not be pushy, etc and another friend suggested he might be shy...guess we'll see. Darn friends that won't heed etiquette...thing is, roomie wasn't drinking and has less sleep, weird hours and what not and had had the bad man experience as well, but SHE was still fine to go. My roomie is awesome. She's also a good friend and she was trying to get to know the interest as well, feel out what he was like, but the other friend was down at the other end of the bar talking to people she apparently knew, but wasn't even trying to talk to any of us (I had made trips back and forth to talk to the groups I knew)...she has her very set, I need to be talking to a guy I'm interested in (even though I've been known to chat with her and whatever guy she was interested in) or I don't want to be out kind of mindset and it gets annoying. OK, so maybe I was being rude toward the end only talking to the interest, but it wasn't my WHOLE night (and I've never taken off on her to go to a guys house).

Saturday I got up feeling fine but a bit tired and wanted to run. It was 16. That didn’t include the windchill. April sucks. I opted out of the run and was going to go later, but roomie and I went for food then a bit of shopping and finally home for naps. I ended up sleeping about 3 hours. Off and on. I haven’t slept good in so long I really need to catch up anyway so I did that and then got stuff ready for Sunday and then had to work at 6:30. Ended up meeting a friend out for a snack after (he had beer, I drop and ate) and then home to bed late again. And again no real great sleep. Up Sunday, got a quick light run (had a really good start to the week with 25 miles in by Thursday and then only got another 9 after that) and then to my sister’s for dinner and then to B&N to work. So annoying. I realized I 1) can’t work there two days in a row and 2) can’t work 8 days in a row, and by the time Saturday comes and I have a day off again, it will be 14 days in a row that I’ve worked and not had a day off. I need at least one full day to do what I want or I just freak out. I was in a great mood on Saturday night, have been managing to fake it at least and give off good vibe while working, well, that doesn’t work two days in a row…sigh…After work on Sunday roomie and I went to see her new friend as he was working (he's a bartender at a bar near our house) and had a bite to eat.

My eating was awful too. I’m up about 2 pounds from where I have been…and I’m going on vacation and might need to wear a swim suit while gone on Saturday. Sigh…hopefully I can run off this crap and not eat for the next 5 days and be back down at least the 2 pounds, and maybe more solidly the 3 that I thought I had lost. But I am meeting a friend for dinner tomorrow, have to be careful on what I order…the rest of the week I should be able to be good though - OK, this was written yesterday, thankfully after a double day (7 at lunch and 10 after work) I am back down to reasonable places. I'm hoping for another 7 at lunch today and another double tomorrow and possibly Friday before I'm out of town for so long!

Appreciation at Work

I guess sometimes they pay attention...


I got these on Tuesday. The Dock at work called saying I had flowers…OK…why? It's not my birthday, it's not any holiday, can't think of anyone that would send me any (although my first thought, of course, jumped to the idea that a certain boy might have sent me some, but the only boy I would’ve wanted to have send them I don’t think even knows where I work and the idea of him sending me flowers when there is nothing going on between us is a laugh, at least nothing that would make him think to send me flowers)…then I had a second message that my co-worker also had flowers…hmm…We had been working on project from hell for the last two weeks, I was guessing that is what they were for, and yes, that is what we got them for. They are very pretty and I instantly thought spring when I got them. I would’ve posted about them sooner, but kept forgetting to bring my camera in and I wanted to include a picture of them. They smell very springlike…

We are also being taken out to lunch next week for an extra thank you. Now don’t get me wrong, I definitely love the fact that we are being appreciated (particularly after I was semi ignored on a lot of what I do last September at our legal retreat, which I still haven’t blogged about), but to be honest, it’s part of my job…falls under “special projects” and instead of receiving flowers (pretty as they are) and a lunch, I’d much rather be remembered with a good review and raise…I deal with cost of living stuff as part of my once a year project. We increase fees on some of our clients based on what the government puts out as the cost of living. This year it’s 3.5%...I know I won’t get that for a raise. Last year the cost of living was 2.3% and I got just under 3% for a raise, which while not a lot, actually made me happy as it was at least above cost of living, but still isn’t great…anyway, I’d still like a much bigger raise (wouldn’t we all) and honestly with my background and experience level I should actually have more, but this is the nature of the work I am in. I need to find something else as I really would like to, and should be making more…heck, I’m making less now than when I graduated college and started a job…

In other news. Yesterday I was scheduled for a 10 mile general aerobic run. I went for 4 miles at lunch, at a slow pace (didn’t wear a watch again) and 20 minutes of strength training. I felt drained yet again and that’s all I could do. Plus another few loops around the island would’ve made me loopy (that’s where I was running, today I’m venturing off campus again). I was going to run last night then when I got home, but instead I sat down and was drained so instead I watched Grey’s Anatomy and ate way too many graham crackers with frosting to put me way over my calorie limit for the day…sigh…and the scale showed it this morning…double sigh…Today will try to be better. At least it doesn’t look like I’m going out for pizza tonight as previously thought (friend doesn’t want to go out on the roads tonight since there is potential for snow). I can eat less then and, since I am driving and there will be snow, I won’t be drinking…again, fewer calories!! I’m going to run at lunch and maybe a second run after work today (I’m running 6-7 at lunch and then might do a 4-5 after work, kind of make up that 10 miler from yesterday, today is scheduled as a rest day, but I had plans to do the 10 yesterday and 4 today anyway). We’ll see how I feel. Regardless I’ll still have my planned mileage for the week, just cutting it back a bit to try to let my body recover and rest. I just can’t take a rest day though. It just makes me feel fat and guilty!

Work and V-day

I realized in my little recap of the run from yesterday I didn’t mention anything about B&N…so I went to work on Monday night and had my walking papers (2 week notice letter) all ready to go, did this a few times last fall in fact too, but didn’t turn it in. I kind of was waiting for something to push me to it, and one of the things, the passive aggressive behavior of one of the managers (instead of flat out saying I was doing “wrong” by chatting for a minute or two, so sue me, it was a slow night, to one of the regular customers that I haven’t chatted with in a while) coming and “asking me” if I could go straighten in another area of the store, well away from the café where I was chatting (only because I had been in there to pick up books that needed to be put away I might add, so it’s not like I just walked over there to talk to him). Tomorrow I work again, and you never know…I might end up quitting then. It’s all just a matter of time. I do thank those who responded and yes, the idea of another part-time job has been in my mind, but the thing is there aren’t many other retail places I would want to work, a running store is about it, and I don’t think they have very high turnover and/or very many employees. I know the one I talked to last fall was full and even then the part-timers work from 10-30 hours a month…so we’ll see. It was sounding like might not be till spring that they might be hiring.

More work frustrations today too. I like my boss, he’s a nice guy, but he’s down in my office everyday right now wanting a status update on how things are with it, and then constant phone calls, even though I’ve been updating him end of the day, everyday, to let him know where things stand. Granted, he’s new, and this is a major project and we have a lot of pressure to have it all done/updates in by Friday, but all the phone calls, emails and stop bys don’t help…sigh…I might need to head out for a drink somewhere this evening…big problem is it’s February 14th, so one of the only nights that you can’t really go out, inconspicuously alone, and have a drink. Especially as a girl. The places that I wouldn’t mind running to for said drink, that are not far from home, are also probably not the best place to go alone…and unfortunately I don’t tend to go out during the week, and most of my friends are attached anyway, so really no one to go out with. I so hate this day. And no, not because I’m bitter single, but because it’s a day that recognizes the laziness and taking for granted that people do for each other. Why is it one day of the year should be taken to say I love you to those around you. Does an overpriced bouquet of red roses (and believe me guys, most women would much prefer a mixed bouquet of something that shows you have some imagination, sure have a red rose in it, but there are so many flowers and mixed bouquets are so pretty and most decent women don’t even care if they are from a nice flower shop, they can come from the grocery store or the farmer’s market, but the fact that you thought to buy them is the most important thing), maybe some expensive chocolates and possibly an expensive dinner one night of the year really make up for neglect the other 364 or 365 (in leap year!) days? Granted, it might be that everyday is love and that one day is extra romantic, but I don’t think that’s the reality…it also puts this extra pressure on. Hmm…I wonder if the approach of this holiday has anything to do with all the pressure I’ve suddenly been feeling that “I should be dating someone”…