Grey Days

I miss the sun...it was out yesterday, it was actually a really nice day, it's too bad some personal other things kept me from fully enjoying. I attempted an 8 mile run, and completed it, but I hadn't slept well the night before due to some messy things in my life right now and while out trying to do a bit of shopping I was just scatter brained...came home, did the run, but it felt very difficult and was quite slow from what I had been running. I went to a friends house then for a birthday celebration. We were then supposed to go out to the bar, but I bailed with a few others prior to the bar as I just wasn't feeling up to going out. It's gray today and a cloud of sadness and hurt hangs over me...and I don't even know why except that I don't know what is going on...and sometimes not knowing is worse than the knowing...anyway, I did get some cleaning done today but that's about it. No workout, which I should've done and still could but not sure I feel up to it...maybe I'll go to the gym though. I really do need it. Maybe I'll feel better after a nice run and some strength training...