Crabby, Rainy Day

I’m in such a crabby mood today and I can’t figure out why nor how to fix it…and I’m supposed to be going to a movie tonight. Originally it was going to be a group of us going, now my roomie backed out (to be fair originally she had told me she might have to do some stuff with her mortgage tonight and might not be able to go, but what she’s doing is looking at places and I don’t understand why she can’t do that tomorrow instead since we talked about doing this last week and it wasn’t just us involved and not to mention she set up the time so that she needs me to take her dog out for her cause she didn’t go home at lunch and apparently isn’t going home after work) and it’s just me and the guy I went running with on Saturday and am supposed to be going to dinner with sometime as well, once we set a date for that. So technically now tonight has semi turned into a date as well, and I’m in a really, really crabby mood…probably slightly in part to being woken up by dog that I’m supposed to take out tonight…and the fact that I got on the scale and am not officially 10 pounds heavier than I want to be, apparently instead of losing 5 pounds, I decided to gain 5 instead….I had to work last night and I am tired of people already as I’ve already crabbed about. The weather is actually kind of warm, which I like, but overcast and going to get cold tomorrow…this makes me sad and upset as that means treadmill running moving forward and I hate that. But I hate the cold…sigh…

So today I got into work planning a 6 miler at lunch to cheer me up and instead we had a work related lunch I had forgotten about, so up in weight at a weight I can’t stand and have a lunch I have to go to…thankfully there is a good salad at the place I was able to eat, but this leaves a dilemma on my run…I’m probably going to leave my desk and do it and just stay a little later tonight, it’s either that or I rush home and end up having to cut it short cause I don’t have the time to run and then get ready to go to the movie…especially with having to take the dog out. Not to mention today work has frustrated me cause I’m the only one of myself, the other paralegal and our admin that gets called to haul files up to the 12th floor from the 6th floor…and I get tired of doing that. It’s frustrating since I still owe about 10K in school debt, I have a BS degree in business from a good school, an AAS degree and a paralegal certificate…and I get paid crap to run files up and down 6 floors…oh yippee skippee…I hate this feeling…I need a big time change in my life circumstances, a change in job that’s more challenging, a nice pay increase, finding something else I really enjoy and am good at…I don’t know…but I need it to come soon. And I need this crabby mood to go away because really it’s too late to cancel the movie. Sigh…