Friday, April 11, 2008


Until you make peace with who you are, you'll never be content with what you have.-Doris Mortman
This quote really feels fitting for today. It has taken me a really, really long time, but I am finally at peace with who I am. There are some small things that I can, and will change (this positive thought a day is the start of that as is the telling those around me that I love them, and when Sunday afternoon it dawned on me that I had told my dad that I loved him when I got off the phone with him, but hadn’t said it to my mom, I immediately called back, got her on the phone and told her, and that was the only reason I called, just to tell her I love her) but for the most part, I am the person I am and I need to accept that person and be at peace with who and what she is, her limitations and strengths and focus my energies on that. I constantly have to remind myself that I’m not the lost person I was in my early 20s (still trying to figure out what I was going to do with the rest of my life) and the more lost person I was even in my late 20s, still trying to figure out a way to fix a couple of the wrong turns I took on my career path. I wish I had found the work I’m doing a few years ago, so I could be even more advanced in my career than I am, but everything has to come together at the times when you are ready for them right? I am content with my core group of friends (although I know I need to expand and find some people that understand my running that are local) and I have a very supportive and loving family. I enjoy my job, like the people I work with and have my health (with the exception of this slight setback with my heel, but I’m coping with it by cross training more and hopefully keeping my strength up so when it’s healed I’ll be right back to it even harder…test run on Sunday, can’t wait!!). I like where I live, even though it’s not quite in the area I’d like to be, but as soon as the market recovers, I’m in a position to sell and move up and by then I should be able to have even more money for a down payment (a benefit to not being able to sell and living in a place that doesn’t cost as much, I can get a lot of money in savings to help with that).

I did decide today that I’m going to pay for the marathon training class for this fall through one of the local running groups. Even though I don’t know how much of it I will use, I can at least do the Tuesday evening run and maybe some Saturday runs (they meet at 7, so that won’t be real often!). It’s steps towards getting to know myself and anything positive in that direction is a good thing right?


Full Metal Lunchbox said...

You have a lot in your life to be proud of.

By the way, Denise and I are going to be in the TC this August for the opening of the State Fair.  It will be in the middle of our marathon training.  Want to run 16-18 miles with us?

Firefly's Running said...

Nice effort!

Kurt said...

Smart move to do the marathon training with a group. Always do better that way. Your going to be around 3:20 on the marathon this year.